o 2016 started off in the wrongest foot possible.
Not the worst month of my life, mind you, but it was overall a very unpleasant month. What with all the celebrity deaths, the death of my great aunt, and a close friend's loss; the constant reminder of the Island's economic crisis with the closing of all GameStop stores here, as well as other stores; and the smaller inconveniences that generally made things worse like my phone screen cracking, and having to visit the repair place three times
to finally actually fix it, and my tablet's cable's port literally melting, and my PlayStation beginning to die on me again, and of course, my own personal health problems among other things... Yeah, again, not a good month.
But what weirds me out the most is how... content I feel. It's not a good kind of content either, though, but nonetheless, I'm content
about something, and it's been going on for a while now. Of course, I've felt very upset about a lot of these things, I've had my episodes too. But for almost each of the things that have happened to me I've felt relief--and I'm not sure why. One guess is that I've "exhausted" my sadness to a point where it's just... dullness. Another is that maybe I've begun to accept some of the things that were bothering me last year, and the weight just seems less heavy. Or maybe, I've got some desire to fix myself that I'm not 100% aware of, but could be beginning to show.
So I've been thinking. It's 2016. A lot of my friends are making plans for their lives. Huge plans. But I feel like I'm still pathetically small in the grand scheme of things. So I'm... starting to make a list of things I want to do, however small they are. Exercise, drinking more water, organizing my art projects, taking on commissions at a different angle, etc. And I'm hoping I'll have time to act on those things this year. I think this is the first time I've ever really given myself a New Years resolution.
And on the topic of the last journal, change... Yeah, a lot has happened. And a lot of things have definitely changed. A LOT. But, like with a lot of the negative things that happened this month to me and the people around me, I've realized... that most of the negative things, this time around, had surprisingly positive consequences. Something I honestly never thought could actually happen, y'know?
And as for art... I've had a lot of ideas for a lot of different projects, as usual. And while I have a huge drive right now, I don't think I'll be able to create anything new right now, or post it right away. At most, expect more remakes, since that's the only stuff I can commit to without committing to something.
But do know that things are coming, and please be sure to express how you feel about my art and projects when I do. You have no idea how motivating a comment can be, however small it is!
I hope that you're all doing well. Please tell me how your year has been in the comments if you want! I want to see things get livelier again.